Oh boy, this is something I have thought about. If I went back in time to do it all over again, for one, I may not have ever met my wife and that is a chance I wouldn't take. But even so, given the same circumstances and the same knowledge and experience I had back then with the same life that lead me to it all, I would have done it all the same as I couldn't have known what I know now. I will think about these things and tell myself that it is utterly pointless to beat myself up over the past. I did what I did, knowing what I knew and that is that. Had I done it differently, being the imperfect man that I am, I just would have made different mistakes, perhaps I would have done even worse.