I'm feeling like total shit tonight. For the x time I'm trying to stop my anxiety meds to try and control it myself but it's clearly not working. Withdrawal is harsh as heck. I feel like I'm going to lose my mind and have a psychosis. I just went and took the fucking pills before writing this post. Why the heck can't it work for once? I know why: BECAUSE BIG PHARMA WANTS US TOTALLY DEPENDENT, THAT'S WHY! I'm so discouraged by all of this. I'm pissed off at myself for starting to take this crap since 1998. I wish I was awake back then but i was still a teenager. I'm also pissed at the doctors for making money off of my mental weakness. I know it's no use accumulating anger and hate cause what is done is done and I was left to myself at the time so I can't really be mad at myself. I can pray all I can but how the fuck can God fix a chemical inbalance in my brain? He can't. I want to share a track with you that describes pretty much how I feel because with this severe somatic generalized anxiety disorder, I also get frequent depersonalisation syndrome as well. God bless you all my frens, as for me, I'm already brain fucked unfortunately. I fear it's too late for a clean, no symptom withdrawl. https://youtu.be/0eSfcUzGTdk